WTF

Today was a major fail. I don't want to talk about it. It isn't good enough, I could have gained. I probably did. Oh god I cant step on the scale tomorrow, I can't gain. Im guessing maybe over 1000 today. I just want to die. My stomach hurts so bad and I hate food. I hate it hate it hate it. I hate myself for this. I am so weak for giving in. I should've said no to the popcorn and to the pasta before that. It's all mystery calories and I dont even know my total. I'm sorry.